i feel SO alone

im homeeeeeeeeeee!!!!! :)

i'm leavinggggggg!

ah :/

so nervous!

im supposed to be packing but eff it. i just got home from staying the night at c's and i have to pack everything then hang out with frank then maybe hangout with chuck. then wake up at 5am and go to the airport and flyyyyyyyy to nevada

last night was amazing :)

finally!

aksfkjsdjhajkaaakhfjdha i have a bigfatcrush on F.A. and hanging out with him every weekend without hooking up is really frustrating :/

last night with bre and randall was a lot of fun. i'm very happy with our entire conversation.

i hung out with bre jamie and tori last night and it was so much fun! we drank at the courthouse and just talked about everything and i'm so glad we're friends with bre again. i can see us hanging out with her a lot more now. it seems like a lot of things are starting to get better. :)

for all you bitches that read this and then go on my formspring and give me shit: i'm going to be pms-ing this weekend so my answers are going to be extra bitchy.

halloween sucked. jamie beat up vee. c went home with vee.

lets do the time warp

Have you ever been completely alone with a guy in their bedroom?
yeah

Who is the last person you rode in a car with?
summer and thomas

The last time you felt honestly broken?
october 1, 2008

If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
an advil and wet fries from the hat

Are you there for your friends?
all day erryday

If I say “psycho”, who is the first person that comes to your mind?
haha i thought of haylee

If your parents searched your room, would they be mad at what they’d find?
fuck no

Be honest, do you like people in general?
i actually do, well depends on the day actually

Do you tell your mom or dad everything?
just my mom

Who do you talk to the most about your problems?
jamie or my mom

This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
CAC

How many hours of sleep do you get a night?
around 8

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?
i have and i can do it again

Would you ever dye your hair blonde?
no never

If you were kicked out of your current residence, whom would you call?
i guess cody since i dont have any close friends that are girls

Did you kiss anyone in ‘10 that actually meant something to you?
yeah

Have you ever done anything illegal?
of course

What are you going to do tomorrow?
going to the doctors, then to school

Have you ever been out past curfew?
i dont have a curfew

Do you like your school?
yeah i dont want to leave :(

Are you taller than 5 foot 7 inches?
i wish

Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a J, R, M, K?
yes, no, yes, no

Were you single two birthdays ago?
nope

Have you ever had sex with somebody that you just met right before?
mmm no

Is the last person you kissed black?
wtf no

Have you ever went the whole day without moving?
well i've spent the whole day in bed before

How do you feel about your hair right now?
i need to wash it

Have you ever been called cute?
yep

Are you currently looking forward to anything?
bmth on friday

Did you text someone til you fell asleep last night?
no

Last person you kissed walks out of your life, what do you do?
probably freak out a little then somehow move on since it wouldn't be the first time

Are you wasting your time on someone?
yes probably

Were you single on your last birthday?
yep

Who was the first female you talked to today?
my mom

Is there something you need?
food in my belly

Have you ever slept in the same bed with anyone?
yeah

Could things possibly get any better?
they definitely could

Can you curse around your parents?
yeah my mom kinda gets mad though

Have your parents ever searched your room or personal belongings?
not that i know of

Do you get annoyed seeing someone you don’t like?
fuck yesssssss

What are you listening to?
house, the tv show not the type of music

Would you cry if you found out one of your friends were pregnant?
no unless it was jamie

Does seeing couples in love make you mad?
only if theyre gross

Have you ever been hurt by someone you never thought would hurt you?
yeah of course

Next time you will kiss someone?
hopefully this weekend! and hopefully their name rhymes with drank

Have you ever asked a boy for advice?
yeah

Could you ever be friends with the person who hurt you most in life?
maybeeeee

Who always makes you happy?
jamie!

Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days?
no

Has someone that you liked told you that you are a waste of their time?
no i would punch them

Is their someone of the opposite sex that means a lot to you?
quite a few of them actually

Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms(of the opposite sex) in the past week?
yeah

Ever been called a bitch?
all the time :)

Have you consumed alcohol in the past 24 hours?
nope

Have you ever kissed anyone with a name that started with R?
no this was already asked

Will you be up before 7 AM tomorrow?
fuck no

What will you be doing in 3 hours?
hopefully sleeping

Have you dated the person you texted last?
gross no we're sisters

Are you satisfied with your life as of now?
sure

How do you handle breakups?
i suck at handling them

Without naming names, say one thing to someone.
three days until oli sykes pees on me!

Do you want someone back in your life?
no

If you had to get a tattoo where would you get it?
my foor

How’s your heart lately?
beating

Anyone say they wanted to be with you forever?
yeah like a million years ago

Is there anyone you cannot go a day without talking to?
jamiejabronie

Do you look people in the eye when you talk to them?
i suck at that

Do you like anyone?
a few people

Have you ever broken anything because you were mad?
no

Do you have a friend named Ashley?
no

Do you love your family?
of course

Are you scared of spiders?
hell no

im so frustrated :/ i can't handle this stupid uncertainty anymore. people are telling me he has a new girl and it's just insane because last weekend he was trying to get me to come over. so where did this bitch come from? and is she just a fling or should i be genuinely worried?

Let’s start off with your relationship status:
single

Could you have sex with the last person you text messaged?
no

Have you been disappointed in the past three days?
yes but only in myself

Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past three months?
yeah i share a room with my sisters so take a guess

Are you alone right now?
yeah but paul justin and jamie are downstairs

Have you ever kissed someone who was high?
yep yep yep

Have you ever fallen asleep in school?
never

Who’s the biggest douche bag that you know?
ha! i can name a few people

Do you like anyone?
yesss

What about dislike anyone?
of course! i fucking dislike a bunch of people

Do you have empty bottles of alcohol anywhere?
nope

Who was last to slap your butt?
hahahaha

Do you have siblings over the age of 21?
nope im the oldest

Relationships or one night stands ?
relationships definitely

Where is your biological father right now?
uhh... idk

Honestly, did you really love the last person you said I love you to?
yes i think i said it to harvey

What do you usually do right away when you wake up?
look at my phone then get out of bed

When was the last time you were told you were cute?
i think on friday

If you caught your significant other cheating on you what would you do?
i dont have a significant other but if i did catch them i would beat the fuck out of the bitch he was cheating with

Ever sat in someone’s lap because there were no more seats in a vehicle?
yeah i sit between jamies legs

Do you have sex everyday?
no what the fuck i would be loose like shandi

Last person you talked to on the phone?
victoria marie

What’s the closest black thing to you?
my purse

What were you doing last night at midnight?
coming home from not toilet papering

Has anyone ever called you perfect before?
yeah i think so

Is there anyone in the room with you?
no

Can you honestly say you’re okay right now?
sure

What would happen if you were locked in a room with the last person you kissed?
we would probably have sex or just bitch at each other

Is any part of your body sore?
my thighs are for some reason

How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
twentyfuckingone

Have you kissed the last person you texted?
no i've never kissed chuck, except the cheek on new years

Do you want a tattoo?
no i fucking hate them hahahahahaha just kidding of course i want ANOTHER one

Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you?
haha yeah

Next time you will kiss someone?
probably next weekend or the weekend after

What are you planning on doing after this?
going back on tumblr

Ever kissed someone that smokes?
yes

Could you go a month without talking to your best friend?
never! she lives with me so that would be so hard!

last night c pretty much avoided me the whole night at the party but at 4 am i got a text from him saying "come wake me up in the morning!" yeah how about i come wake you up with a fist to your face you confusing assface

i slept over at c's last night. we stayed up wayyyy late i think we went to bed somewhere between 5 and 6. he couldn't sleep so we stayed up and talked about the most random shit ever. that boy. ah. and it turns out that one of the boys lauren is seeing used to be one of my best friends in jr high! small world haha. thats all thats important from last night.

went to laurens last night with jamie. lauren was so wasted when we got there. c showed up with danny and aaron and right when we were leaving he texted me asking if i wanted to go watch movies with him. of course i said yes. aaron came too and he watched youtube until 4 am then he fell asleep and c and i watched a movie called bad company (i think) with chris rock in it. we went to bed a little after 5. i woke up around ten and tried sleeping longer but it was hard. c and i cuddled all day. aaron went to the beach. and we got some alone time. i helped him register and become an official college student! he only has one class though haha. idk when i'll see him next but the time we had together today was nice :)

day three of a nonstop blood-pounding-in-my-head headache
this is pretty serious :/

i slept over at c's last night. just us two. we watched dogtown and z-boys and i fell in love with the documentary. didn't go to bed until 6 or 7ish. didn't get much sleep. woke up to an empty house and then i walked home at 5. now im vegging out when i should be getting ready for jose's tonight.

warped tourrrrrr :D
was so much fucking fun
no words can really describe it
except stupid asshole thomas was there and he cheated on his gf with summer the whole time
but emmure kicked ass and bmth made me lose my voice and suicide silence was awesome and sonny moore was sexy and craig owens was heavenly
<3

i feel that is ultimately impossible to ever get over c
i found myself missing him so much last night and feeling like there wasn't a thing i could do about it