...but home is nowhere

fuck i can't find that song anywhere on myspace. just got outta the shower. haven't been home in forever. 25 hours away from "home" it was good :) this week has been so up and down its ridiculous. and the week isn't even over. soooo lets seee hmm sunday i went over to codys, that was fun. monday was work, that was pretty lame. tuesday i went to the college to take a test and couldn't because i don't have a picture id so i was in downtown for three hours waiting for cody to get outta summa school, and at 11:42 a.m. i was at starbucks sitting alone and then the earthquake hit. it was pretty nerve racking since i was all alone and because my phone stopped working after that. then school got out and i met up with cody and jerry, justin anders and miranda too....jerrys house was fun :) then i went over to codys house for dinner and that was pretty fun too :) then wednesday i had work again and that was gayyyy. then yesterday was the market and i got to fullerton at 11 and had a bagel and blake hooked it up with some free frucci which was freaking delicious. and a bunch of shit happened at the market yesterday which i don't feel like typing out. basically i talked to vee and bre, straightened it out i think..idk. mindy was there which was fun because i love that girl. then it basically went like painkillers, frezzies, ralphs, hillcrest couch, bust, messing with topher, hole in the wall, bust, eric and tylers house??? abandoned house, tandem bike, thomas' house, backyard, ghost? the warriors, sna(not watching movie at all, fun fun sweaty sweaty)tch x1.5, the mummy, sleep. basically. and tonight should be fun i hope. i want to get drunk. fuck. i want to move out. i want to live on my own. but places are so expensive and theres no way i can get a job to afford monthly rent. :/
on happier terms: 6 months is approaching. shittt it seems like yesterday we had just started going out. and now look, half a year later and i'm insanely happy <3 i love this boy so much. we've had a few rough times but we stuck through it and haven't given up and every little speedbump just makes us that much stronger. yeah i used to be a little insecure about all the girl attention he got but i don't freak out over it as much as i used to. because i have him, not them. i still get fucken pissed off but thats normal. girls have no respect whatsoever. they just better not cross the line because i'm not afraid to fling fists. there's no one else, nothing else in this world that makes me as happy as he does. every fucking day i fall harder and harder for him. i don't know what life would be like without him. i'm not sure i would still be here. fuckkkkk <3