idfk.

today is going to be slow i can tell. jamie is gone. bfs grounded. no plans. im so bored. i woke up after 12 hours of sleep only to find out my dad got in trouble last night gahhhh. great. just another thing to stress on. hes always getting in trouble with the law and i hate it. honestly i think he gets pulled over every other month. i dont know why hes always on the cops radar...maybe its because of our shitty ass van that he cant seem to part with even though only one car door works on it and a window is missing and the middle seat is taken out and its almost as old as i am. fuck. i fucken hate that car. how embarassing to be driven in it. i hate taking my friends places because that car is fucking gay. or maybe the cops are attracted to him because he looks like hes stuck in the 80s with that gay ass mullet of his and his stupid cut off shorts and shirts and his "bad ass" attitude. fucken anger management isnt helping at all. i hate it. i wish i had a normal dad then i wouldnt worry about him getting arrested all the time. but noooo he has to act all tough all the time and think hes the best driver out there and he thinks he could kick anyones ass. psh. fuck. i know im going to hate today. and to make it worse theres a crying baby at my house. and jamies not here so how am i supposed to have fun. i think im going to try and get out of here. somehow. i dont care if i have to go out myself and be somewhere alone. anywhere is better than my house. ill probably walk to tri city park...or somewhere idk. maybe i'll just walk to baskin robbins and get ice cream...idk exactly where ill go but i just want to leave. i wish i could see my bf today, he makes things so so so much better. ah like seriously... :) i was supposed to go to the mall with jamie today. oh well. i guess ill go get ready then for my adventure today...