for once

i was going to start off talking about something other than my boyfriend. but i totally forgot what i was going to say. hopefully it hits me. but i doubt it because i'm so tired. i should take a shower tonight but i think im gonna take one in the morning instead. its really hot in my room. i dont even wanna put on pajamas. ah i have the window open and i can smell someone cooking hot dogs. that smell always makes me sick. probably because i was around hot dogs all summer for two years straight working for the flyers. idk if i'll have that job again this summer. i super hope so. so the 31st of this month will be my two year anniversary of being vegetarian. it may not seem like a long time but it is for me. i wish i knew about the cruelty of the animal industry earlier though so i could have gone veg in elementary school haha. less than a month of school left, i should start failing all my classes now so i can stay another year. yeah right. fuck that. its only tuesday :/ the weekend is so far away. i dont know what im looking forward to though because who knows what will happen this weekend. hopefully we go to that crystal cove place or whatever. that sounds really really fun. fresnos coming down i guess?? hopefully its not awkward. fuck why do guys have to make everything awkward. whateverrrr. ahhh its so hard not typing about cody. i want to so bad. but i feel like thats all i talk about. in everything i write hes there. well i cant help it if hes pretty much the only thing on my mind. um um um HOUSE was amazing last night. next week will be amazing too. something to look forward to. yay. goodnight.