no pity for a coward

soooo excited for tonight. you have no idea. i've been wanting to see emmure ever since i heard them last year. and mitch from suicide silence will be a nice sight too haha. spent three days straight with c victoria and aaron. thursday we watched last house on the left at my house then went to tylers for a bit. stayed the night at aarons. friday was pretty laid back. slept at victorias. her house is way too hot though. even the shower i tried to take was hot. there might have been another factor to that though haha. went swimming at aarons yesterday. the pool felt so damn good. i stayed in the longest. everyone else was too pussy to stay in. overall it was very very fun. then last night jamie and i hung out with everyone at golden hill. i babysat cj while he got drunk for the second time ever. that was pretty funny. im surprised the cops never showed up. i wont see c for two days because todays the show and tomorrow is girly day with jamie and victoria and victorias mom. this summer has been really good. im just scared when school starts for them that it will be exactly like last year and i'll lose him again. i guess if it happens again i'll be more prepared this time. i just dont want to make a fool out of myself.

on a lighter note, jamie and brian were way cute last night. if only that boy would man up and make moves like that when he's sober. hes always been shy though i guess. but he cant use alcohol as a crutch forever. if i was a guy i wouldnt have to get drunk just to make moves on her haha. found out someone else might like jamie too... i dont know how shes going to handle it the next time he comes around. but this was news to both of us because he never showed any signs of liking her. people need to be more open with their feelings dammit.