siiiiick ass show last night. emmure was amazing. they played my three favorite songs, including Rusted Over Wet Dreams. suicide silence was epic. mitch gets down haha. andrew from scary farm showed up. and then things went downhill from there. apparently this whole time we've been talking he mistook my friendliness as flirting. he wouldnt stop telling me how gorgeous i looked and i just brushed it off and said thank you. then he put his hand on my back and it kept getting lower so i would elbow him to make him stop but then he texted me saying "make a move cutie" and i replied with "i have a guy in fullerton" so he flipped out and shit hit the fan pretty much. he basically said "have fun with no job stringing people along in life, have fun with your broke friends in fullerton and the douchebag guy, im gonna go crash my ferrari blah blah blah" i was so shocked. i told him i only wanted a friendship out of this and he told me he never wants to talk to me again. i'm really shocked at this. the whole time i was just being friendly. i never told him i wanted to fuck him or anything so i dont understand where he got these crazy ideas. all we ever talked about was the things he was buying with his money and if he thought he could have me just because he's rich he's wrong. dumb cocky piece of shit. i dont need people in my life that insult me or my friends. so my night was fun except for that whole incident and the fact that while we were waiting to be picked up he kept walking by us which freaked jamie and me out, she thought he was going to kill me haha. 

class was fun today. i talked to joseph :)

the money i was supposed to get wont come until the end of september now so that fucks up all of my plans. i dont know where i'll get the money to get my nocturnal ticket or birthday presents for c or the money i need for my math book. ughhhhhh. stupid shits.

no pity for a coward

soooo excited for tonight. you have no idea. i've been wanting to see emmure ever since i heard them last year. and mitch from suicide silence will be a nice sight too haha. spent three days straight with c victoria and aaron. thursday we watched last house on the left at my house then went to tylers for a bit. stayed the night at aarons. friday was pretty laid back. slept at victorias. her house is way too hot though. even the shower i tried to take was hot. there might have been another factor to that though haha. went swimming at aarons yesterday. the pool felt so damn good. i stayed in the longest. everyone else was too pussy to stay in. overall it was very very fun. then last night jamie and i hung out with everyone at golden hill. i babysat cj while he got drunk for the second time ever. that was pretty funny. im surprised the cops never showed up. i wont see c for two days because todays the show and tomorrow is girly day with jamie and victoria and victorias mom. this summer has been really good. im just scared when school starts for them that it will be exactly like last year and i'll lose him again. i guess if it happens again i'll be more prepared this time. i just dont want to make a fool out of myself.

on a lighter note, jamie and brian were way cute last night. if only that boy would man up and make moves like that when he's sober. hes always been shy though i guess. but he cant use alcohol as a crutch forever. if i was a guy i wouldnt have to get drunk just to make moves on her haha. found out someone else might like jamie too... i dont know how shes going to handle it the next time he comes around. but this was news to both of us because he never showed any signs of liking her. people need to be more open with their feelings dammit.

medicate

beach was amazing today. the waves were strong though. but the bonfire was funnnn :)

taking woodstock tomorrow at midnight<3

got my tickets for the show on sunday.

i got to see bre today finally. it was fun the little bit of time i got to spend with her. hopefully i can hang out with her again soon. i finally bought cj that arizona i owe him. now he owes me a vitamin water and some hot cheetos. gotta get up at 7 so i should get off now. but im texting c and i dont wanna stop hahaha. the next month is going to be super exciting. 

OMGGG AFI released their new single "medicate" today! im in love. its different. but good different. 

:D

chosen one

the mighty boosh is the funniest show ever. especially "journey to the center of punk" ah i laughed sooo much. school tomorrow. then i might hang out with bre. but i gotta get those tickets tomorrow so idk if i'll have time to :/ had an unexpected guest over today. i didnt mind though. i just didnt think he would actually show up when i invited him over to eat the bomb 7 layer dip i made. but he did :)  things have been a lot easier with me and him. i've decided to be more accepting and i've surprisingly become less attached. okay so actually i dont think thats worked but its what im trying to believe haha. jamie and k are done. forever. according to him at least. im not getting my hopes up that he'll be out of her life for good but the way things are looking make me pretty happy. its not him that i hate its just how he hurts her so much. and honestly i think a break from him like this is exactly what she needs. i just want her to be happy and she needs someone that will make her happy 99 percent of the time not just 50 percent of it. that girl deserves the best because she is the best and any guy that treats her like she isnt the best obviously doesnt fucking deserve her. so i've made my point. i think. i love this girl more than life itself and for once i think she will actually be truly happy. which makes me happy.

i think im going to inject jamie with alcohol every day so she can be as outgoing as she is right now haha.

more on this later.

surprisingly im more sober than most people here.

i gave up fighting, i've come to see these halos. am i now worse off for this one night?

my braces are off!!! i'm so happy. i get my retainer on friday though :/ i look slightly older than sixteen now haha. college is going alright so far. its only day three though haha. they sold out of my math book until next week though so i dont what imma do about that. gotta do my english homework tonight. theres this rave coming up called nocturnal, its c's birthday rave, and everyone wants me to go. but raves arent my thing ya know? but maybe i'll go. and maybe i'll buy c his ticket since it will be his birthday unless his mommy buys it for him. and if that happens then i've got three other ideas on what to get him haha.