realization

everythings my fault, yet i do nothing about it. my self esteem is completely shot. i dont know whats happened. i feel like i cant make anyone proud. no one cares anymore. i just wish someone actually could bring my self esteem up but lately ive been feeling a little forgotten. all this free time has really been depressing me...which is why i went and applied everywhere today. so far ive applied at see's, michaels, coffee bean, target, petsmart, vans, and henrys. lets hope i get a call back soon.