theres so much i can say yet nothings coming out. talking with bre just made me realize how much more depressed i am. she helped a little but it just showed she's the only person that cares. i think if i went away everyone would be better off. no one wants to hang out with someone who's depressed all the time. going away to nevada really sounds appealing. maybe i can go next week, or maybe after codys birthday so i can give him his present. no more ksf. work was insane today i came home bloody haha i didnt want to leave though. its too early to sleep, theres nothing to distract me though. i wanna play soul caliber right now. jamie hasnt been home for 6 nights straight. haylees gone. i wish i could be gone too. mmm i hate this. and im really really sorry to whoever reads this like seriously im probably putting you in a shitty mood and im so so sorry. truly. i just want you to be happy so dont read these because they're always so negative and i promised you i would try and stay positive but its hard, i really dont want to bring you down. yeah like that last sentence wasnt directed at anyone in particular hahaha. bleh. theres a bowl of frosted mini wheats with my name on it. someone text meeeeeeeeeeeee.