wanna sleep

took a sleeping pill for the third night in a row :/ cant sleep yet because attack attack is putting a new song up soon. if i had to think of my favorite day of summer it would be friday/saturday at tophers :) i was soooo happy then. my birthday comes in second though, that was a fun day too. i was thinking about just getting away from everyone and staying up in nevada with my grandprents for a while...i wonder who would miss me. i probably wont go up until october and im only going if things dont improve. not even jamie cares about me anymore, it sucks. i need a HUGE self esteem boost. and i need to stay away from the sleeping pills.