its hot today

in the middle of winturrrr. wtf man. gotta love drama. probably shouldn't write about it in here though. its funny how when you get advice from a complete stranger you feel better than when its from someone close to you even though the stranger pretty much says the same exact thing as your close friend did. whats even funnier though is i don't think i'll take the strangers advice hahaha. i have a feeling i might not want to hang out with the group anymore but i have an even stronger feeling that as much as i would like to, i could NEVER leave those boys. for the past 3 1/2 years of my life i have grown up with them and its pretty much them who have made me the person i am today. i wouldn't change it for anything. but sometimes hanging out with them has its downfalls, i keep forgetting that they aren't all 18 like me haha. idk whats going to happen when i start college, what if i find people my age to hang out with, ah. i'm split down the middle, one half wants to stay with the group and have fun and party and the other half just wants to move on. i guess we'll just see what happens. so nervous for tomorrow. i wish someone would help calm my nerves.