you got a henna tattoo that said forever

i don't do it for you, i do it to forget you. but it doesn't work. i honestly don't know what to do. stupid mind games. maybe its just all in my head though, i'm looking for reasons for why you would want something more but maybe those reasons aren't even there. i wish i knew what i wanted out of this but i don't. i honestly don't. thats the scary part because i'm usually so sure of what i want. but theres an equal amount of both positives and negatives so idkkk. my tattoo itches. i'm tired. and frustrated. the only thing i'm looking forward to is the zoo on sunday <3 so fucking excited you don't even know. ah if you only knew...<333