i honestly never expected this to happen. i don't even know if i can type this without throwing up. just the thought of what went down last night makes me so sick. fucking cody stayed the night at some bitch named lindsey's house last night. i guess lindsey is hunter's chick's friend who thinks cody is hot and apparently cody and her have been hanging out a few times but last night was the first night he spent at her house. i'm still in shock. utter and complete shock. 6 months of us hooking up and then this happens? without even a hint at this chick. for five weeks straight i stayed the night at his house at least once a weekend and there was never any hint at there being another girl in the picture. we made plans for new years. i bought him a fucking expensive ass christmas present. the thought of him fucking some bitch last night makes me so sad. i know we weren't "official" or anything but he was always the one making the effort to hang out with me, that obviously means something right? i feel cheap and used and so so so so stupid for falling all over again for the same boy who broke my heart last year. it hurts worse the second time around. at least last year i had some idea that it was ending. not this time. fuck hunter he's a stupid manwhore and fuck him for introducing some cunt to the boy i've been seeing. this is completely ridiculous and i just wish yesterday was erased from time and he never went over to that bitches house. i'm stupid for wanting him back. i almost regret texting him last night and pretty much ending what we had. I JUST FUCKING WISH I COULD BE ENOUGH FOR HIM but i never am. i knew this would happen i just didn't think it would happen when everything seemed fine. i can't imagine what the next few days are going to be like. merry fucking christmas.