two days

until college :/ so fucking nervous. idk why though. i think im worried of getting lost or something haha. its so big and i'm so small :(  "of want and misery: the nothing that kills" look up the lyrics to that as cities burn song when you have time. story of my life, on depressing days at least. i probably should be downtown right now. for what though its just going to make me sad :/ i wish bre went downtown today. havent seen her in like 298748237492729 days. and for some reason she's not getting my texts which is dumb. it better work soon because who the eff am i going to text while i'm in school. i hope theres cute boys in my classes :) hahahaha fuck boys they're so confusing i hate feeling second best its like wtf i'm smart enough to know when i'm being played dumbshit. however of course i'm going to develop feelings for you after hooking up with you and you said all that cute shit ajjsaksljfuck 

on a different note: the subconscious is a funny thing.