kerensas house

just got the creepiest tarot reading from her mom! it couldn't be more true ah. she knew things about me kerensa doesn't even know. but the reading was good. i'm kinda excited about the remaining year. tomorrow jordan is coming to hang out! :)

frucci

is so good :D i love it! its better than golden spoon bahahahahahaha ;) today was pretty fun. hung out with jordan jamie paul and kurt. we got rainforest cafe volcanos! sooo good! it was cold today though. tomorrow is supposed to be hot though which i don't understand haha. crazy weather. spring break is in a week! yay!!!! i hope i can hang out with steph soon. or go back to the bpm with bre. i hope tomorrow isn't too boring but its a monday so who knows. there better be a new house on though.

FML

wow. went to the buena park mall with bre but she ended up getting drunk and acting completely stupid. so i left. i should have done something different today. i knew going to the mall was going to be a letdown. fuck stupid 14 year old cakefaced whores. they're so dumb. why the hell would an 18 year old guy be interested in that? ugh. i'm hungry and there's no food here. i want to leave. i don't know where i'll go though :/

feel good drag

jamie needs to write in her blogspot every day because it cracks me up with all the shit she talks in it haha. yesterday was almooooost a letdown. but joe and jordan finally showed up around 5 and we got to hang out. we met some awesome crazy puerto rican guy named rico who is like ginormous. i might go to the mall today, hopefully. my mouth is really sore from the ortho. i can only drink those chocolate protein drinks because chewing is a bitch.  but the pain should only last a day or two then i'll be back to eating regularly haha. tomorrow i get to go see jordan play rugby! i'm really excited for that. and then i don't know what i'm doing the rest of the day, maybe i'll finally get to see bre. and sunday i'm helping jordan with his english project. eventful weekend. gotta get a bitch and get my dick sucked.

orange juice

i am so happy :) i just got back from hanging out with steph who just so happens to be my neighbor now. it honestly felt like there wasn't a gap between when we last hung out which was like a bajillion months ago. and i really like that feeling. i miss hanging out with her. i miss hanging out with a lot of people actually. i wish i had more free time to hang out with everyone. fuck going to school haha i'll just hang out with my friends. tomorrow should be fun i hope. jordan is coming down to hang! i think i have a vocab test tomorrow. oh wellll hahaha. ortho tomorrow. imma get purple or blue bands. i'm so tired. my human sexuality teacher canceled class today so i've been up since 6 for no reason. looooongg day

i pretty much lived in victoria's car this weekend. friday night was fun as hell. met up around 10:30 at night and we didn't get to my house until 5 30 in the morning. we attempted to sleep but that didn't work haha so we got back up at 9 and got ready then drove around and shopped at some thrift stores. i got two really cute flannels :) then came back and got ready for jordan's birthday party. we ended up going bowling instead of laser tagging but it was all good haha. i hurt my hand somehow though :/ then we went back to jordan's and hung out there until three in the morningggg. that was very fun :D slept until ten then victoria came over and we checked out another thrift store but it wasn't that great. and after victoria left for work jamie and i went and saw i love you man. funny fucking movie. loooong weekend and i am very tired but i gotta make my essay another page or i won't get a good grade on it. i'm not as stressed as i was before and thats very good. i've got better things to worry about haha. oh my victoria really needs to upload the pictures she took from this weekend. so many good ones! i try talking to bre but i feel like she's preoccupied or something. i'm really trying to make our friendship work but idk theres just so much going on its hard. i hope it warms up soon. the cold is killing me. is it just me or is everything going by so fast?

i've sent my envy over seas

STRESSING LIKE A MOTHAFUCKER. over the stupidest fucking reason EVER. but its gotten so bad i can't sleep well anymore and i wake up early and my tummy hurts randomly. if i get a fucking ulcer i'm going to kill this bitch. ugh.

my ribs have been broken for quite a while

but they are finally healed for the most part. and no one will understand that. the san diego zoo was AMAZING<333 the show at chain with we came as romans was also quite amazing. i ran to the front of the stage and grabbed the singer's hand. ah so much fun! i got to feed giraffes today!!!! do you know how amazing that is?? unbelievably amazing. i love giraffes :) and i saw pandas and elephants and koalas and bears and meerkats and gorillas and hippos and rhinos and zebras and flamingos and tigers and monkeys and a ton of other animals. my trip today just made me 2948932727483822000 times more anxious to work there. fuck fool i wish i could just start working there tomorrow. i would so be all up in the giraffe cage every day haha. today was my third straight day having del taco, wow, i think i'm just a little obsessed haha. but i really don't want to have it tomorrow, maybe i'll get subway. i didn't hang out with the group at all this weekend. i haven't seen any of them since like thursday i think. i didn't mind though. i think i needed a break just to clear my head and sort things out and i'm glad i did because it really changed my perspective on things. but we'll see how long that lasts. i'm sure i'll totally change my mind tomorrow ha. school early. how lame. everyone needs to go to the san diego zoo.

you got a henna tattoo that said forever

i don't do it for you, i do it to forget you. but it doesn't work. i honestly don't know what to do. stupid mind games. maybe its just all in my head though, i'm looking for reasons for why you would want something more but maybe those reasons aren't even there. i wish i knew what i wanted out of this but i don't. i honestly don't. thats the scary part because i'm usually so sure of what i want. but theres an equal amount of both positives and negatives so idkkk. my tattoo itches. i'm tired. and frustrated. the only thing i'm looking forward to is the zoo on sunday <3 so fucking excited you don't even know. ah if you only knew...<333

picturetime!

thats lexi and me in the snow :)

i'm just a bit obsessed with him <3 

this is where emile hirsch and i are going to have crazy hot sex for the rest of our lives hahahaha

but occasionally we'll have james franco over for a threesome :D

human sexuality

can suck my dick! assigning two different projects to be due on the same day. and that day just so happens to be tomorrow. and have i started on them? nah haha. its okay its only nine. this weekend went pretty well :) saturday was awesome. lexi's game was intense to say the least. then the rest of the day/night went pretty well. i'm tired as hell though. i'm running off of like two hours of sleep. mount baldy today was fucking beautiful.  the lift was pretty scary though haha but the snow was worth it. and the snowball fight was pretty fun too :) i'm so tired. seriously. a few people pissed me off this week. but a few people made my week fucking amazing :)

dick sneeze

show tonight at chain :) underneath the gun, suffokate, all shall perish, abigail williams and conducting from the grave! im kinda nervous imma get beat up by all the metal guys there though haha. this week hasn't been too bad, it didn't go how i expected it to though. i thought a certain person was going to act differently since when we texted there was something there but i guess not. my weekend: chain tonight with thomas mindy jamie kurt and paul. thennn lexi's rugby game tomorrow at 11 and hanging out with "the group" or whoever. and sunday maybee the mountains with jordan and joe.  that should be super fun i hope. imma make jordan ride the sled blindfolded hahahaha. i had four dreams last night and the same person was in all of them. but in two of the dreams i was super mad at them and the other two i was like super happy with them. i'm pretty sure my head is trying to tell me its confused haha. but i knew that part already. i just don't know how to handle it. its not a big deal though i guess, i've got other things to worry about. that dumb cunt shandi is going to be at the game tomorrow cheering for the other team and i hope to god she doesn't piss me off too much. i get to see andrew tonight, haven't seen him since the bringmethehorizon show so we'll see how that goes. i wonder if this weekend will be anything like last weekend. i kinda hope so.

iiiiii gottt

a mothafucking tattoo! :) it didn't even hurt. i love it. its just a little sore right now and im kinda nervous to shower with it.  but its all good. idk how many people like it though. oh fucking well. i like it and thats all that matters. gooood mood :) lets see how long it lasts. 

i am really tired and want to go to sleep. but i'm afraid to turn the light off haha. just got back from thomas's and we were telling superrr scary ghost stories. and jamie and haylee both left to spend the night at other people's houses so i'm alone. scary shit nigga. and everyone i was texting like passed out on me haha. so i have no one to talk to :/ i'm not exactly sure what is going to happen but last night my relationship with a certain person changed and i don't know exactly how to describe it but i have a feeling it might change things. that makes no sense. i wish i could elaborate but its still too early to determine whether my hunch is correct. and i don't want to go making a big deal out of nothing. who knows. my tummy hurts.