AFI was motherfucking amazing :D jamie and i got so close to the front omg and i sang along to EVERY SINGLE WORD. davey looked hot as usual :) and that fucker said he got a kiss from anthony green before he came onstage!! lucky fuck. poor jamie got punched in the head though :/ i ended up losing my voice but it was so worth it. best AFI show i've been to. the other bands were pretty awesome too. As Blood Runs Black was crazy and five minutes into their first song a fight broke out. they also did the wall of death :) Molotov Solution and Impending Doom were sick as hell too. Chiodos new singer is alright, they opened with my favorite song so that was nice. Circa Survive was alright but Anthony Green is a little too spacey for my liking. "The sun and the moon are both up, it's a battle and in 8 hours it will all happen again" umm lay off the weed Anthony. We ran into Kevin Conner and Josh, they were so much fun to hang out with. We also met some DJ named Pessimist and his friend who was a complete asshole. ANDDDDDDDD Mitch Lucker from Suicide Silence was there and Jamie got a picture with him. Overall, Bamboozle was super super fun and I'm very glad I went.
it sucks im still sick though.
and i havent seen c in forever :/
buttt my daddys gonna take me to the courthouse today to practice driving :D

AFI today bitches!
i dont give a fuck if im still sick imma be so happy tonight :D
if you arent going to bamboozle youre missing out
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i feel like im not getting any better, just sicker :/

i'm so fucking sick
and i need to be better by saturday dammit

there is too much drama going on

overall, last night was fun.
way too tired to go into detail
got to c's house at 6 15 and was passed out at 630
woke up at 11 then 12 then 1 then 2 then 3
and now imma take a nap again
then work on bio homework
and sleep some more

and just like that

it seemed like everything became good again
c actually approached me last night and gave me a hug and thanked me for buying his ticket
lauren is going too now and i'm excited for that
kinda nervous for tonight though
eek

lauren talked to victoria and settled that. but for some reason aaron still hates me. and cody isn't talking to me.
:/

i passed my mothafuckin driving test!
:D

making progress

talked with lauren and cleared things up with her. thank god. i was scared i was going to lose her as a friend right when i started becoming close with her.
aaron still hates me but he's stubborn. i just dont know why he's blaming me for everything.
hopefully everything will go back to normal.
before saturday.

there is a bunch of shit going on :/
a lot of pointless drama and its all pointing in one persons direction
a certain someone is trying to make everyone hate me.
good luck

mall people they just dont know

went to the mall today with bre and jamie. then justin and paul came and we got red robin :)
i got a cute ass shirt and some new nail polish and a tank top to go under the super low cut shirt i ordered from modcloth.
gonna get my AFI tickets right now with daddy. so damn excited.

aaron did a really good job last night as a dj. the party was pretty fun but by the end of the night i was freezing. didn't talk to chody much. i think we said about twenty words to each other. oh well. he went to lauren's last night and i went home but i'm not worried about anything. even if something happened between him and one of the girls there, i'm not trippin. we toilet papered some bitches house last night it was so much fun haha. i miss victoria :/ don't know what my plans are for tonight but i heard theres a party in fullerton. maybe i'll hang out with chuck if he replies. who knows. my tummy hurts though. permit test on monday and getting my cavities filled on tuesday :( the only thing i'm looking forward to is next saturday. and possibly next friday if freaking eric goes to class haha.

i got a new phone. it's still taking some getting used to. it's the rumor2. i like it a lot. i probably should be getting ready for class right now since i gotta leave in an hour. maybe eric will give me a ride home again :) lauren is coming over after school and she's gonna sex me up and get me all hot for the party tonight. hopefully c's eyes will only be on me hahahaha. victoria has been telling me some things about lauren and him but i'm not trippin. i trip too much with him and i need to stop. i need to get my AFI tickets.

i don't wanna jinx anything, but i'm really happy with how close we are becoming. finally a new friend comes along.

went to c's house last night at 4 in the morning and slept. just slept. nothing more. we didn't even kiss. i'm not worried though. we got in a little fight last night about that whore chrissy who came up to him at the party and it pissed me off. but i spent the entire day in bed with him and she didn't so i guess i really have nothing to complain about.

went to oceanside and stayed at a hotel last night with jose rob joe lauren jacob randall and danny. jose and danny got trashed haha. it was a fun night but i am tired now and barely got any sleep since rob was hogging the bed. gonna take a shower and a quick nap then probably go back out tonight :)

"hook it up with your sister"

if someone tells me that one more time i think i'm going to shoot myself.
thanks for making me feel inferior.
i know she's gorgeous and all but every time someone asks me to hook her up with them i feel so....blah. idk. boring. ugly maybe.

i have a headache.
c didn't even say hi to me today :/
i bought him six fucking tacos yesterday from del taco and he can't even say hi to me. wow.
why do i even try?
pierre was downtown and i ended up hanging out with him and brian and paul and all them.
awkward much?
for a little while. then he started talking to me but i could have sworn he called me a bitch.
whatthefuckever.

i'm sorry

i don't know what's happened to me. i've turned into an utter and complete bitch. two years ago i was NOTHING like this. i don't know when or why i changed. i'm supposed to be the nice girl, the one everyone loves, but lately i find the most hurtful things coming out of my mouth. why is there so much hate inside me? i am so disgusted with some of the harsh things i have done lately. what the fuck happened to me? i've always considered myself one of the nicest out of all my friends and now....idk. i wish i knew how to change this and go back to the "normal" me but i don't think that's even possible. and i know if i dig deep enough i'll realize what caused me to change but i'm afraid of what i might find. in all honesty, it's probably because i secretly resent constantly giving and never receiving anything in return.

:/

my shoulder is so sore :/
but it was well worth the pain
i'm in love with my new tattoo
<3