james franco

haven't written here in a while... haven't even been on the internet lately. it's fucking freezing. todays friday...not much planned. i guess victoria has some patron (spelling?)...ehhhh. so i'll probably go hang out with her since codys going over to vinces. i just want to stay home and watch movies. and put on codys socks because they keep my feet warm..ooh that gave me a good idea...hold on...ah now my feet are warm :) idk if i should drink tonight though because i have to wake up at seven tomorrow to get my hair done. and chase comes back tomorrow so yay!! umm well damion texted me today :/ its weird because i KNOW he still has feelings and hes married. and then it seems like luc still has a thing for me...and last week when fresno came back down he kept calling me babe and staring at me. fuuuuuuuuuck. oh well. on a happier note...i could not be any happier :) <33333333333 ajsfdjksdhsahashashkskhkahkahjaakka :))))))))) hahaha. three day weekend and its cold out wtf. im not gonna want to go out if its like this all weekend. only twenty days and im out of school. yay. i wanna go to disneyland. and the zoo. sooooooooo freakin bad. and i want to get dressed up and go out. fucken cold go awayyyyyyyy

for once

i was going to start off talking about something other than my boyfriend. but i totally forgot what i was going to say. hopefully it hits me. but i doubt it because i'm so tired. i should take a shower tonight but i think im gonna take one in the morning instead. its really hot in my room. i dont even wanna put on pajamas. ah i have the window open and i can smell someone cooking hot dogs. that smell always makes me sick. probably because i was around hot dogs all summer for two years straight working for the flyers. idk if i'll have that job again this summer. i super hope so. so the 31st of this month will be my two year anniversary of being vegetarian. it may not seem like a long time but it is for me. i wish i knew about the cruelty of the animal industry earlier though so i could have gone veg in elementary school haha. less than a month of school left, i should start failing all my classes now so i can stay another year. yeah right. fuck that. its only tuesday :/ the weekend is so far away. i dont know what im looking forward to though because who knows what will happen this weekend. hopefully we go to that crystal cove place or whatever. that sounds really really fun. fresnos coming down i guess?? hopefully its not awkward. fuck why do guys have to make everything awkward. whateverrrr. ahhh its so hard not typing about cody. i want to so bad. but i feel like thats all i talk about. in everything i write hes there. well i cant help it if hes pretty much the only thing on my mind. um um um HOUSE was amazing last night. next week will be amazing too. something to look forward to. yay. goodnight.

hes perfect for me

but can i be perfect for him? i try. i really do. every day with him gets better and better <3 i have never ever been this happy with someone. and it feels amazing. its almost midnight haha. but i cant sleep. i took a nap with cody today..for about a half hour, i think he slept for an hour though. he's cute when he sleeps. today was fun. yesterday was fun too...well sorta. kinda had some drama but whatev. took a taxi home at 2:30 in the morning...that was interesting. fucken jamie thought we were gonna have the cash cab hahahahahahaha. i cant wait for this weekend, i really hope its fun. so i've come to terms with accepting davey havoks gayness. its kind of depressing because i liked him so much. but then i saw him in the new revolver magazine and lost pretty much all attraction for him. his hairs so short and he dresses pretty fairyish haha. wow i cant believe what i'm typing. what happened to sing the sorrow davey? bring him back!!! well i'll always have a thing for davey i guess but it wont be the same. hes still that vegan, straight-edge, amazing lyricist he's always been but jeffree star threw his fairy dust all over him and turned him fag :( so fuck you j star! and if you're at the breathe carolina show imma throw my shoe at your fake vagina. i really need to try to sleep. gotta wake up early tomorrow for school. and see cody :)

ily

i said it last night. the three words that i've kept behind my lips for so long. i finally told him. and it felt amazing. he's amazing. i keep replaying the scene in my head. i can't believe he feels the same way. ahhhhhhhhh i feel so relieved. yesterday was such a good day :) i got to school early so that meant more time to spend with cody before going to boringassstudyhall, then after first i talked to steph and matt, second period i started on my valedictory speech for the class, third period i sat and ate a bunch of food with jamie, break with cody :), fourth mr. secoda gave me the answers to the test and caitlin made me cry haha, fifth art with huntie and brian and basically doing nothing, lunch with sexy boyfriend, then sixth with mindy and jarvis..and after school i went over to kurts with cody and jamal. well there was kind of a fight with me jamie and kurt but whateverrrrrrr. and then later that night i went back out with everyone and drank some bacardi and shasta. pretty gross but whatev. it was super fun. the only bad thing is how jamie thinks i'm a slut. which is pretty retarded since she's done so much worse than i have. i don't need my parents thinking badly of me but she's making them do just that by telling them i fuck my boyfriend on kurts floor all the time which is the biggest lie ever. my goodness jamie, if mom knew half the shit you've done with kurt....ahh whatever. i just discovered a new band called attack attack! and i think i love em already. it's like blessthefall with electronica. i probably should go shower since i'm going out later tonight. im kinda bummed i missed the audacity show last night :/ hopefully they play in fullerton again real soon. only like twenty days of school left and it's got me thinking soooo much. i know i'm going to be crying the whole last week probably. i've grown up with half these kids and knowing that i probably wont see a lot of them after graduation kills me. friendships are hard to keep after high school. one of my first closest friends, caitlin, will be going away to san francisco for college and i'm going to miss her so much. we just started becoming close again this year and now she's going to be gone soon. high school is GAY.

lawnmower

codys pushing one right now. ughhh jamie and kurt are fighting...again. its pretty annoying. i think this is like their eighth time going out...? whatever. market tonight. i'm excited. not really, markets are pretty lame lately. but i want an icee. and maybe a crepe? idk though. im kinda becoming friends with bre again but idk if i can trust her. im not so sure that she just wants to be friends with cody. so we'll see.....

sammadick

i got a new phone yay! gahhh im way too tired to write, so fuck.
saturday night was pretty amazing.
boyfriend is amazing.
goodnight.

i'll stand forever and love whatever breaks my heart

last night was sooooooooooooooooo much fun. i feel like i start a lot of my blogs like this haha. deal with it. double date to the movies. saw harold and kumar 2. pretty funny movie. then we got ice cream. and then almost got jumped by some assholes that take tagging wayyy too seriously. fucken retards i swear. then we all went back to cody's house and watched randall play gta4. and jamie and i left around oneish. and my boyfriend is so fucking cute :) and all these bitches want him and it gets me so mad :/ i feel threatened. i can name five hoes off the top of my head that want him... what happened to having respect? why don't girls care anymore if a guy is in a relationship or not? if a guy has a girlfriend back the fuck off. how hard is that? jfjaljsajsdjaasfsjsskkskfslksjsashshahaassholebitch soooo steph and i are officially walking together for graduation :) that makes me happy. i love that girl. jamie and kurt are back. yay? i hope. sleepover tonight...? i dont know. i wish.

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