go ahead and delete me from your life

posting a bulletin about how you're going to get some lovin that day and texting all your friends about how you wanna get laid isn't really the best thing to do if you never really wanted to do it in the first place
if you really got raped you would have gone to the fucking police you wouldn't have gone to big slice to hang out with everyone
i made a drunken mistake too but i didn't go and tell everyone it was rape
you really need to learn how to think before you act
of course everyone in fullerton is going to hate you right now
we all know how you are
it's not like this is the first time you've lied about something so how are we supposed to believe you
you put yourself in that situation
what did you expect to happen

maybe if you learn from this we can be friends again
who knows

everyone is so fucking stupid
but thats just cuz i'm pmsing
however i'm pretty mad at bre for causing joe to get hit
and i'm mad at jamie for taking my spray

on a happier note,
i stayed over at c's last night :)
he passed out the minute his head hit the pillow
but somehow we both woke up at 7 and listened to the pouring rain outside and cuddled
then passed out again until 1
jerry danny chase and cynthia came over then
and now i'm at home just got out of the shower and eating mac and cheese
gonna go get my rave ticket
then who knows what will happen afterwards

i'm feeling a lot healthier today :)
got a ride home from eric. that was nice. class with him is too short though.
hopefully the rain doesn't ruin my weekend.
probably getting my beyond wonderland ticket today.

had a field trip today at newport back bay
it was boring
all we did was look at birds and then it started raining on us
went to target today
got a cute bag, some tights, gum, new headphones and one other thing :)
then got lunch/early dinner at red robin
ordered two new rings from modcloth and a wallet
went to classic to get a quote on my tattoo but gabe wasn't there so i have to go back tomorrow
then got medicine at ralphs and an artichoke for dinner :D
ordered jeans from drop dead. i hope they fit.
pretty chill day
i got to see c for a little bit too
now imma do my math homework
<3

my money cameeeeee :)
so so so so happy now!!
praise jesus!
haha

on a different note, it's cold out. and it's taco tuesday.
and i got to see c today for 5 seconds.
lets hope the rest of the day stays good.

finally got to stay over at c's last night
i waited a whole month for that haha
and now we will hope that things stay good
at least for another three weeks
i'm going to hang out with steph tomorrow i'm so excited
i got a cute bathing suit yesterday too
i could type so much more but i'm tired
<3

volcanooooooo

went to rainforest cafe and got a volcano :) it was tasty
had a math test. i hope i passed that shit.
i had a terrible dream last night :/
gah i miss that kid every damn day i swear.

bio exam today
i didn't sleep for shit :/
hope it goes well
then i gotta drop off victoria's wallet
maybe i'll stay and say hi to c at break
bleh

oh lordy
i am never ever drinking jager again

it's a stupid holiday
but i fucking wish i had a valentine today

woo friday
i hope tonight is fun
we were supposed to have girls night but cgay stole lauren from us so idk what we're going to do now
hopefully theres a party tonight
its c's moms birthday today
i had the weirdest dream last night
it was about HOUSE haha
and i woke up crying
crazy shit man

i got my belly button pierced
trashy i know. oh well haha
it was on a whim and if i don't like it i'll just take it out
it hurt more than my lip piercing though :/
c got a tattoo like last week and i just found out today
whoo gotta love our communication skills

fuckytits

i'm officially sick :/
i blame this cold weather
and my lack of a good immune system due to the stress from school and shitface cody
and the fact that my "best friend" has pretty much dropped me

my laptop magically picked up haylee's itunes. i'm upstairs secretly listening to beyonce and i freaking love it. fuck this rain. got a lot of biology homework tonight. bad girls club is on also. anddddd taco tuesday :) i think i'm getting sick. i can't get sick before my four day weekend though! i think imma try and hang out with chuck too just as long as i don't get sick. blahhh.

the emmure show was so much fun! we got to see mitch lucker from suicide silence :) he was so sexy! and some kid got knocked the fuck out and had to be carried out of the venue. poor little guy. everyone that didn't go missed out. and emmure played more of their old songs than their new songs so some people were wrong when they said that they were only going to play their new shit. it was probably one of the best shows at chain i've been to. but now i think i'm getting sick :/ either that or my throat is just sore from screaming. i have a four day weekend coming up though so i better not get sick. and hopefully hopefully at least one of those days i'll get to spend with c but at this point my hope is pretty low. i'm so tired i woke up at 5 15 this morning and couldn't fall back asleep so i just waited an hour until i actually had to get up. i don't know why my body thinks 5 hours of sleep is enough. i'm so tired :/ i think i just have a shitty sleeping pattern from stress. ugh stupid boys.

i got out of the house last night. it was pretty fun we went to a party in la habra. still didn't get to stay over at c's house like i wanted to though. oh well theres always next weekend maybe. emmure tonight :) hopefully thats fun. then school tomorrow. that wont be fun.

fuck friday. it was supposed to be a good day but i had to walk to class in the rain then when i got to the library my fucking umbrella broke. then some weirdo sat next to me in class and was breathing all heavy and annoying and eric came late so he didn't even get to sit next to me and thats really the only reason i go to class because he makes me laugh. then the fucking teacher dragged class on for ten minutes longer than its supposed to be and i had to walk home in the rain without an umbrella and when i got home fucking kurt was at my house sitting in my damn living room. and i wanted to go see cody but i don't want to walk to angelos in the fucking rain and he probably will just go off with jerry like he always does anyways. he can't even text me anymore i just want to stay over at his house again but he'll probably be too busy playing beer pong like he always is. and victoria is with her new best friend tj and she'll probably get drunk with her tonight or something and i'll be stuck at home all alone. or maybe i'll go hang out with chuck and get hit on by his creepy friend kyle and freeze my tits off in todd's garage. either way though it probably won't be much fun.

math test today
i studied though :)
school is killing me
i really hope this weekend is fun
i need a fucking break
and i'm sick of this whole on/off shit
i need consistency

my schedule is going to be the death of me
constant homework
goodbye social life
ugh someone come shoot me