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are creeepyyyy. but they have cute kitties there :) i really really really like being single. i'm in no mood to have a boyfriend right now. i don't even think i'm emotionally ready yet. however i feel a lot of pressure from different people to hook up with someone and i really don't want to. i don't want to lead people on either but i'm kind of a big flirt :/ i can name at least five guys who i'm preeeetty sure like me and this may sound really egotistical of me but i'm not even happy because of it. its scary. its like the minute i became single suddenly i was a blip on every guys radar. sure its fun but i feel really really overwhelmed right now. i have worse things to worry about. like family matters. i don't need the stress of a boyfriend right now. i just like having fun. and i don't wanna be a whore and hook up with a bunch of guys either. thats not what i'm saying. i haven't done anything more than kissing since i got out of my last relationship, funny that my ex can't say the same. i just like taking things reallyyyyyyyy slow and thats what i'm going to do and if people can't respect that then whatever. the bringmethehorizon show was so much fun!!!! andrew came and it was really nice seeing him since i last saw him at scary farm. funny how both times i saw him he had been drinking. whatev though i hope he comes home soon from touring so he can throw a party at his super nice house :) bonfire tomorrow possibly, if it doesn't rain. the word alive show december 6th :) :) :) and the best thing of all??? i saw steph yesterday!!! i'm so happy. i miss her. i wanna start hanging out with her more again. i miss hanging out with people my age haha. i drove today twice and didn't crash. woo!!