cant buy love

but i guess you can buy naughty time in a pantry. ha. started off this weeked with a hundred, finished with twenty of it. only twenty was spent on me also. no complaints whatsoever though. i enjoy being a good friend. but if i hadnt opened my mouth and said i'd pay for hookup boy i would still have most of my hundred left, if not all of it. but i go great lengths just to make hookup boy happy because i have hope that someday hopefully, he will realize that i'm a pretty amazing person. anywho hookup boy and i hooked up again. i guess it's a monthly kind of thing. he claims to have been high but then i was told that he admitted to remembering it. so i am confused, i dont know if my heart can handle just hooking up with this kid. i like him a bunch. if this is a once a month thing.....idk. idk idk idk idk