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i can't breathe. today just dramatically got a whjole lot WORSE. the boy of my dreams for three whole years has a fucking jksfdksajkhfjksahfsjkahskh i think i'm going to be sick. i can't fucking believe it. fuck that. i'm not going to his show. i can't see sfjklksjfsajfasj oh god and the thought of them kissing like ah. i'm seriously going to puke. holy shit. fuck fuck fuck. this week was pretty freaking good until about yesterday. and today has just gotten worse. and i can only imagine it will get worse. i had so much to type and my mind is blank. shoot me in the face.